Family Drama

        I was always close with my dad. He and I had a much closer relationship compared to the one me and my mother share. So when he pasted last year that hit me hard. The relationship my brother and I have with our mother is far-far from perfect and will probably never will be. She NEVER shows emotion, NEVER /RARELY told us she loved us verbally, SUPPORTIVE every once in a while, and what she calls "THE TRUTH" coming from her is constant negativity,no one wants that negative energy around them ALL the time. She just is not the ideal mother. There are so many individuals out there who I know of that can praise their mother,worship the ground she walks on and all and here I am can't even stand to be in the same room with  mine. It should not be that way. I'm just waiting for the first chance I get to get away and wont have deal with her anymore 18 years are enough. She can go live her life with her new husband and her TWO NEW CHILDREN that she is replacing my brother and I with. That's exactly how it feels,when it was brought to my attention,shes washing her hands and ready for two new ones... that is quite alright with me.

      She claims I'm disrespectful to her and her husband , mainly because I wont speak to them and open up. What the fuck do you want me to say, neither one of you CONSISTENTLY make an effort to make me feel comfortable enough to do any of that. Saying that I can come and talk to you about anything ONCE before and that's all is NOT enough. Show some concern act as if you care and just maybe that'll spark a flame in this relationship. That's the key to getting someone who is shy to open up. If you ask anybody I'm not the type to just open up and talk to any and everybody. It takes me a while to make new friends. I hate meeting new people because I never know what to say. I'm not the social light I once was.You would think my mother would know these things about her son, she doesn't, she doesn't know a lot of things. I made the mistakes before of letting people in and had to change because people felt the need to take advantage of the kind person at heart I can be.

    I have nothing against Kobe Anderson, so for the simple fact they make it seem like I'm this BIG PROBLEM CHILD is not right. I'm feel sorry that they even feel like that, I'm the victim. I never do anything to anybody, I try to stay to myself,  I'm a good person that has to put up with so much BULLSHIT its ridiculous. Their are only select members in my immediate family on my mothers side, I care for my cousin Kayla we are a year and a few months apart, her sister Chanel, and my brother Cameron. this is just the beginning more drama to come im sure