My Suicide Episode

You've reached the state of depression where, you feel worthless. You wish you could have not woken up that day, you don't feel loved and you've really given up and checked out on life.

 I became suicidal my second semester in HS as a freshmen at the beginning of 2011. That was one night i will never forget.There was a program on television and I was watching and the topic of which they were speaking of was bullying. Apparently it was anti-bullying month, and it was all the talk for a while. As I was watching this show, they told individual stories of how all these kids committed suicide due to issues at home ,school and life. These stories were so sad I couldn't help myself I had an emotional breakdown. I had replays in my head of the same experiences that these kids who committed suicide went through. From the taunting, to the bullying verbally and some physically, that all can way heavy on a person with an innocent  mind and heart. That night was terrible for me I was literally getting ready to give up on life and say fuck it. I was making statuses left and right on my Facebook page. People were scared for me, they were calling my phone that whole night just to see if I was alright I wouldn't accept any calls I was too busy plotting on how I was going to do this(already had written out my note) . I was tired of being talked about tired of dealing with people and the ONLY way I felt I could get rid of all this hurt was to end my life. But then there was a voice that spoke to me saying don't give up, it's not your time , trust in me and believe things will get better. I realized at that moment that I was going through a test and that God would never put more on someone than they can bear. I began to take my faith in Jesus and my religion to the next level.